Goodbyes Are Hard, But Not Forever

by - April 24, 2015

There are people you will meet in your life, who will change who you are. There is a possibility that they may change you for the worse, but if you're really lucky, you'll meet people who will make you a better person than you were before you knew them. 
Living in a small town, I wasn't often blessed with the opportunity to meet very many new people. You grow up with the same people you've known your whole life. The girl you sat beside in kindergarten, was the same girl you sat beside in highschool. It really wasn't until I came to University, and was put in a position where I knew absolutely no one, that I got the privilege of meeting people who not only changed my life, but who also changed me. 
And now, as I've reached the end of my journey here, and I am leaving all of these amazing people, I've realized that I don't know how to say goodbye. Because, how do you say goodbye to someone, or to people who have stood by you in everything, who've made you laugh when you're sad, and who you have made an abundance of memories with. 

Have you ever watched a sad movie, and you get to the saddest scene, and your heart physically hurts watching it unfold? That's what goodbyes feel like to me. I feel like someone is reaching into my chest and squeezing my heart. 
And it's silly, because I know deep down in my heart, that these people, these amazing, wonderful, beautiful people, who have helped me become the strong and brave person I believe myself to be now, will forever be in my life. At least I hope that they will be. But that doesn't stop me from crying when I have to say goodbye, and it doesn't stop my heart from hurting. 
So for now, I just have to keep telling myself that these goodbyes are not forever. That at some point in our crazy lives, we will meet again, and our friendship won't have changed, if anything it will have grown stronger. I refuse to let this be goodbye, so instead, I'll just say see you later. 

So It Goes,
Spenser xx

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