Things Have Changed

by - April 01, 2015

If you had asked me 2 months ago if I was happy with the decisions I was making in my life I would have said absolutely, no question about it. I was prepping for my last months of University, and making plans for post-graduation. If you follow me on any of my social media, or even if you have been reading some of my older blog posts, you would likely know that I had big plans of packing my bags and moving to the land down under for an entire year. For anyone who knows me personally, you know how big of a decision that was for me. I may not be a homebody, but I love my family more than anything, and the thought of being away from them for a whole year in a country halfway across the word, was an incredibly scary choice to be left with. But, with that said, I was excited. I was beyond excited, because as I've mentioned many times before, University was not what I thought it would be, and I was ready for a whole new adventure in a whole new place. 
Cut to a week ago, where my mood went from crazy excited, to crazy confused. I recieved some news that would change my plans completely. Without getting too much into it, I went through a tough time making a decision that was going to make me the happiest. My previous plans to move to Australia as soon as I could, were influenced by the fact that my best friend, who I  haven't seen in a very long time, happens to live there. When I found out that she no longer had plans of being there during the time I was meant to go, my very overdramatic world sort of began to fall apart in front of me. Again, let me emphasize that I live a very overdramatic life and definately overreacted to this news. After lots of tears because things weren't going as planned, and we all know how much I like (need) to stick to a plan, I sort of freaked out. I called my mom, as any adult does in situations like this and she talked me down, and gave me some very motherly advice. She got me thinking about what it was that I wanted to do? Where did I really want to go? What would my choice be if I only thought about myself throughout the decision process?
After thinking a lot, my plans have changed. I now have plans to move to the UK (hopefully London) for at least six months, before eventually heading to Australia, and I cannot begin to tell you how excited and happy I am with this choice. However it's not the change of plans that have me feeling this way. Obviously I was more than happy to move to Australia in the beginning, it was never my original plan, but the fact that I would be reunited with my bestie put me over the moon. But now I was able to make a decision  where I thought about myself only, which is not something I normally do. In fact I rarely make decisions based on what would make me happiest, and I'm always trying to please as many people as possible with the choices that I make. That's just the kind of person that I am. But now that I've made a decision on something just for me, I've realized how important it is to be selfish from time to time. You cannot live your life trying to please everyone, before you please yourself. I thought I was happy with my life choices a few months ago, but right now, in this day I haven't been happier or more excited for something in my entire life. The reason for this is because I have finally made a choice just for me. Something I recommend you all do. 
To be clear, I am in no way upset with my best friend (nor do I have a right to be), because I understand that plans change, and I understand that it's important to make choices for yourself. Duh, that's what this whole post was about. So while I am incredibly disappointed that it will be a long time until we reunite, she and I both know how strong our friendship is, and we know that whenever we are finally able to be together again, it will be as if we had just seen each other yesterday. 

Also thanks to my coworker Maddy for the suggestion of a new sign off phrase, which I just so happen to have tattooed on my forearm.

So It Goes,
xx Spenser

P.S. I got a nose ring.
P.P.S. I love it

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  1. Your nose ring looks soO lovely on you face! You totally look like its been there for years! You have the
    perfect nose for piercing and the little silver hoop compliments your pretty face. Would love for your to post about your adventure.

    Love reading your blog an reading about your wonderful sense of makeup and fashion. Your face would really "pop" with "Prada" makeup look accentuating your cute nose ring making you look super sexy.