It's Time To Stop Waiting | Hello 2016

by - December 31, 2015

It has been an incredibly long time since I have last written anything for this blog. I have sort of fallen into a rut lately and I've ignored not only blogging, but vlogging and YouTube as well. I'm honestly not really sure what happened, but I want to take a moment to apologize. Not just to those of you who might look forward to seeing what I get up to/write about, but to myself as well. Because I have really let myself down in a lot of ways lately. And with it being the end of another year and all, I thought I'd reflect on some of the things I would like to change in the new year.
I suppose it's silly for me to make resolutions, since I've never once kept one, so instead I'll call them "Things to Work on in 2016".

This picture popped up on my Instagram a couple of hours ago and it hit me like a tonne of bricks. In fact it's actually what inspired me to finally sit down and write something again.
I think that maybe everyone can find a little truth in this quote, but for me I felt like I'd never read something more true. Because the more I reflect on it, the more I feel like all I've been doing lately is waiting. Waiting for the right time to come back to blogging, waiting for something interesting to vlog about, waiting for someone to initiate a friendship with me, waiting for next Monday to start being healthy and going back to the gym. Just waiting, waiting, waiting. And honestly, I think it started to drive me a little bit crazy. I feel like a lot in my life has changed in the past year, and I am grateful for that, don't get me wrong. But I also feel like I've lost more of myself along the way, which I suppose would be fine if I had put in the effort to replace what I'd lost, but I just haven't.
So here's where that changes, I think its fair time I start to take back control of my own happiness in life and stop waiting around for a series of events to do so.
Here are the things I want to start working on this year:

  • My Health. Both mentally and physically. I need to stop sleeping in so late, stop being lazy, stop putting garbage into my body and expecting to see results. This year I want to get a handle on eating healthy foods, exercising regularly and properly, and getting enough sleep. 
  • Making Friends. I have this awful fear of looking like an idiot, which might be surprising for some considering I regularly make a fool of myself on the internet. However I think that fear holds me back in a lot of ways, mostly from making friends. I want other people to make the first move, and that isn't always a successful way to meet people. So I'm going to try o push myself out of my comfort zone and start making more of an effort to meet new people.
  • Budget. Man oh man, if there's one thing I'm good at it's spending money. Especially when I don't have a lot to spend. I need to work on planning my spending, and not spending my money frivolously. 
  • Blogging/YouTube. This is a big one for me, because it's something that I love to do. But far too often I take a one week break that turns into a 3 month break and I want to stop doing that. I want to treat it like less of a chore and start to enjoy my presence online again!
Much Love, 
Spenser xx

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