by - March 02, 2016

Happy Wednesday Babes,

And we're back at it again with Wisdom Wednesday. I promise one of these days I will get into the habit of sitting down and writing other posts, but I hope for now you guys will be cool with another "Spenser disguises advice she needs to take herself, in a blogpost meant for other people" post. 


This weeks quote applies to a couple different aspects of my life, but for the sake of this particular post I want to focus it on my current fitness and health journey. For those of you who are not already aware, at the beginning of this year I really decided I needed to get my shit together and put energy into being the best me that I can. A big part of being the best version of myself includes being the fittest and healthiest version of myself, and so I started eating better and going to the gym. 
And surprisingly I am still working towards that goal. In the many times I've attempted to lose weight in the past, I've always managed to give it a good go for about a month and then just sort of give up after not seeing the results that I want. I'll be honest with you guys, I've come close to doing that again. I haven't given up per se, but I am doubting myself and my ability to stick to my goals, that I've given up working my hardest. 

The process of weight loss in theory is simple; exercise and eat well, and the weight will come off. And I have the exercise part down, no problems there at all. I've been working with a personal trainer for the past 5 weeks, who has been so great to not only push me to work my hardest in the gym, but also give me that motivation to do so. However, it's the eating that is my downfall. For the first little while I was doing everything I needed to do, to a tee. But I also realised that as a 22 year old girl, who enjoys going out with friends and indulging every once in awhile, it was probably unrealistic to think that I could eat 100% clean, 100% of the time. 
So I started to doubt myself, and I started cheating on my meal plan, and getting lazy with food. I have been seeing results in my body, and there are certainly items of clothing in my closet that fit better than they used to, but I know that I could be doing better. I know that if I had my eating in check I would be losing more weight and I think that is starting to psych me out during this whole process. 
But even though I know my diet is a big part of the issue I currently face during this weight loss journey, I can't help but feel my biggest issue stems from my own fear that I won't be able to do it. 
I often find myself thinking you've tried and failed so many times before, what makes you think this time will be any different? And if I don't stop myself from thinking that way, then surely my own self-doubt will end up killing any chance I have at becoming the best version of myself, before trying and failing ever could. 

I would encourage you all to take a second to think about some dreams or goals of yours. Whether they be fitness, school, work related, whatever. Take a moment to reflect on whether or not there is a possibility that the reason you've not yet achieved those dreams or goals is because you don't think you can. If there is even an inkling of self-doubt in your mind, or you were looking for some sort of push to go after what it is that you want, here it is. And I'm writing this for myself as well, because I need to hear this just as much as you might need to. 
You can do this. You have the power to go after your dreams, and you can't let anyone, including yourself, stop you from achieving those goals. It might be hard, and there may be some struggles along the journey, but you have to at least try. Because, doubt kills more dreams than failure ever will. 

Much Love, 
Spenser xx

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