Sometimes You Have To Just Put Yourself Out There | Wisdom Wednesday

by - October 17, 2018

This week I applied for my dream job, at a company I’ve wanted to work for since I was 17. It doesn’t sound like that scary of a thing to do, in fact one might think that applying for your dream job would get you excited. But in reality I was scared shitless. All because of an 8 letter word – R E J E C T I O N. I have this inane fear of rejection, one I’ve had for as long as I can remember. It’s why I’m never the first one to start up a conversation with strangers, for fear that they think I’m weird, or why I have a hard time going after what I really want. When I first found the listing for this job, I daydreamed for a few minutes about how awesome it would be if I got hired, but ultimately clicked out of the website because I didn’t think I had a chance. Fresh from the rejection of applying for another company I’d love to work for, I wasn’t sure I could handle another potential no- or worse, not hearing anything at all. I’ve been incredibly lucky that the majority of my “real” jobs I’ve had have been secured through connections. Don’t get me wrong, I’ve worked my butt off since starting in them , and that’s led me to more opportunities, but they have all sort of fallen into my lap so to speak. So when I returned from my first adventure abroad I had little experience with the process of applying for job after job, getting a glimpse of hope after interviewing, only to be turned away or rejected. Time and time again I would get excited about a job, and then incredibly disappointed shortly after. After a while that really starts to mess with your head. I started applying for fewer “dream” jobs, and more jobs I figured I would be able to get. Until this past week, after talking with some friends about what the start of their adult lives are shaping up to look like, and being inspired by friends who I haven’t seen in years living the kind of life that I’ve only been dreaming up – I decided I needed to go for it, to suck it up and let the cards fall where they may. Sometimes you just have to put yourself out there and see what happens, not just in terms of applying for your dream job, but in all aspects of your life. I’m tired of not loving the life I’m living because I’m too scared of what or who might say no. I am so passionate about getting people to live their best lives, but am such a hypocrite when it comes to living mine. So I applied and who knows, there’s a pretty solid chance I may not get the job, or even an interview. But I feel so much better, and my heart is happier knowing that I am at least trying. I’m putting myself out there and just waiting to see what happens. And that’s what I want to inspire in all of you- to put yourself out there, and learn to be okay with the chance of rejection. Rejection is not fun, believe me I know. But neither is living a life you’re settling for, because you are too afraid to go after what you really want.

Much Love, 
Spense xx

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